God is amazing. Solid fact.

Okay! So I really have to tell you about yesterday! It was amazing =)

So my body decided to wake me up yesterday at 4 am with intense stomach pains. Great. So I took some medicine and grabbed a heat pad and climbed back in bed since I had no need to be up until 5:30 for work. However, my mind was awake enough and my stomach hurt bad enough that I couldn't fall back asleep. So I got up, and actually messed arround a little bit with the design of this blog. 5:30 rolls around and I got ready for work and got on the train, still wide awake and cheerful. I don't really know why. Being a girl, we have a week each month that is usually a bit more emotional than the rest, and yesterday was the beginning of that week. I should have, knowing me, been super cranky yesterday as a combination of that and the fact my stomach hurt all day long and I had gotten less sleep than I normally do. But I wasn't. I was actually really cheerful and happy all day long. That was the first indication that God was working yesterday. Then I got home and watched a movie with my family after work. During the movie, a friend texted me and asked if I wanted to do something with her family today. For a couple different reasons, I had to say no. I really didn't want to say no. At all. One of the reasons that I've been worried about going to college was because I didn't really want to leave my friends here. I was afraid. I was afraid that I would lose them when I left and we wouldn't be close friends anymore. But last week God told me something. He said "Hey tay, you aren't trusting me with your friends. Let me have them. Let me work in this area of your life". So I did. One way of doing that was that I deleted my facebook...opening a door for God to work. But last night, I just didn't feel like trusting God. One of my friends had finally asked me to do something last night, and I couldn't. I sat crying in my room (this is where that whole emotional girl thing plays in =p) because I wanted to trust God, and I was trying to so hard. But it didn't seem like He was doing anything. So as I was crying and praying in my room, my phone vibrated. I looked down at it and I had gotten a txt from this friend of mine suggesting something else to do tomorrow that I would be able to do. Wow. God works in amazing ways huh? And the amazing part for me is that I don't deserve it. I stated this earlier, but I really don't deserve God's love, miracles, or grace. I have made some pretty stupid and unforgivable decisions this past year. I spent most of the year rebelling against authority. And yet, even after I spent a year running away, God still is right there for me to run back to and He still loves me and He still wants to work in my life!! Why?? Because by Him giving me what I don't deserve and not giving me what I do deserve, He gains glory and honor and praise. That is why I exist right? Is this to say that I can just walk around doing whatever I want? haha heck no! But it does mean that when I do screw up, and I honestly humbly repent of it, God will forgive me. PTL for that!!! So after this, I grabbed my mandolin and just started singing. My dad came in and I explained to him what had happened and he started singing with me. After that, I watched a couple different Veggie Tale videos with Cole and my daddy, and the crazy thing is the theme of both videos were trust God. Realize that even though His plans may sound crazy, or we may be scared to follow them, we should trust Him anyways. Ironic? Well, I just had to tell you about my amazing day yesterday and that God is just amazing. Solid fact.

loves =)
tay