Worthy =)

So I was talking with a friend the other day who just recently entered a relationship and she was saying how she felt unworthy for him...but he found her incredible. She didn't feel worthy of him. I've done alot of thinking about this lately, especially as I am reaching that age where I might meet "the one". I wonder if I will ever be worthy of him or ever feel worthy of him. In reality I won't because I ain't. I'm not worthy of someone who will love me for me....and stay with me by my side until the day I die. I'm not. But heres the thing. I'm not worthy of God either. I'm not worthy of the grace and mercy and love that He shows me day in and day out. After all of the wrong things I've done, I deserve to die. Literally. I deserve death. Yet God STILL loves me; He STILL wants to use me; and He STILL forgives me. He says that if I come running back to Him, He will take me in with open arms. What an incredible amazing indescribable God we serve huh? He CHOOSES to bless us with things that we don't deserve, like a spouse. My friend said it in an amazing way: "I don't NEED him, but I want him". God chooses to bless us with a husband or wife to live by us and be an example of the sort of love that He is for us. We don't NEED that person, but oh boy we sure want them. They aren't made to be first in our lives. God is supposed to be first in our lives. But they are there to seek God together with us. Again I say, what an incredible God we serve!!!

Don't know if this made sense or if it sounded random, but it was on my mind so i wrote it =)